The Benefit of Change. I need You!

So today I am in a better head space.  I spent yesterday at The Christie Hospital. In which I have had ongoing monitoring since 2012.  My head in the afternoon wasn’t in the best of places.  I decided to go out for a run kindly joined by Bev.  After the 10-mile run my head was in a lot better place than it started. Running I suppose is like having a counselling session with yourself. The hard bit is getting out there.

Today saw the devastating news that the research centre at the Christie had caught fire.  my time at the Christie changed my view on life.  So many inspirational people walk through its doors.  Each with their own demons they face.  They just seem to get on with life despite the internal struggles they have.  One of the reasons I decided to take on The Petra Desert Marathon to raise funds for the christie.  And more recently decided to take on the 230km across the Amazon Rainforest in 2018  to allow them to carry out the life changing work they do.

The current charity of Claire house I feel profoundly proud to support. After visiting the Charity and seeing where the money donated goes. It was an emotional experience. which is hard to explain to say how I felt. To say I enjoyed it is incorrect , but as close as I will probably get.

The work they do allows the children, siblings and parents to get the most from life no matter how short it may be.  They say they hope for the best but prepare for the worst.  Seeing the facility’s and a few of the children they care for it reassured me what I was doing was for the greater good. Not only was it helping me with my own demons, but helping those provide a lifeline to those in need.

Change can come in many forms in our lives. It may come on all of a sudden, like a tidal wave or creep up on us at a snail’s pace. I may as, as it did with myself. Come in the form of a tragedy of in the form of difficult choices, broken relationships or a new opportunity.

But even though change is often difficult. Many times, it is for the best.  I have many demons. Nonetheless the tragedy that changed my life pushed me to achieve great things.  Things I didn’t thing where possible. Anything great in life often requires a significant change that pushes us way beyond our comfort zones and beliefs.

I am beyond any comfort zone I could ever have dream’t of .   Time and time again I must question every decision I am about to make.  I always think that if I put myself out there I stand a great chance of failing, but if I do not I have already failed.

I do not intend to fail, I do intend to help as many people as I can. When I am pushing through pain barriers and emotions. I remember those I am doing it for! The pain I feel is nothing compared to what people face day to day. I find some courage within myself. Courage itself isn’t always loud and forthcoming. It is sometimes a little voice, that says I will try again tomorrow.

Take the sorrow or pain you may feel and turn it into something positive. I am not saying it will be easy, it most likely won’t be. It will however be worthwhile. I can assure you of that. All though at this very moment I do not see what I have done as achievements. One day I will!

Going from a party animal to a traveler, marathon runner and skydiver in the space on 1 year has meant great sacrifices . None in which I regret. Because I have developed as a person a better one I believe ( though that is  open for debate )   and that’s how change happens.  Change happens though each person, each gesture one moment at a time.

Hope usually begins in the dark, our happiness or unhappiness depends far more on how we deal with the challenge within our lives.  More than the challenge its-self.

All too often I dwell and focus on the bigger things, forgetting about enjoying the little things. Those little things however make the most of. They are the memoirs of life itself.  They are the words to you chapter, your chapter in time. Don’t waste it!  None of us truly know how long we have got so make the most of now. This is what Claire house do,  they make the most of every moment.  They create memories that will last long after these beautiful children have passed. Giving the family’s the most precious gift anyone can. MEMORIE. The treasures these familys get to keep for their lifetime.

This coming month I have the Yorkshire Three peaks.  The Brecon Beacons Ultra (where the SAS train )  and then I fly out to Peru to participate in the world’s toughest marathon upon the Inca Trail.  Even if you can spare the price of the coffee please do.  I have seen the tangible difference your donations make.  Remember it is you that are the life changers and the gift givers. You have been tremendously generous so far. I have had confirmation that the next £800 at least would be matched! Currently standing at £1900  let’s see if we can get it to 2700 at least.  That would mean at least £3500 for the charity.  I can only do it with you !!!!!!!


The Impossible!

I have just been thinking about the challenges ahead. Can I crawl under a rock and come out when they are done? A while back I came across the saying in which I now use quite often “everything seems impossible until it is done” A year ago, I only just started contemplating my first marathon. Something I had never dreamed of. A change in my personal life made me make this change. Thus, to this day I believe this made me a better person.
With the bigger things in life, apprehension and fears leads to a feeling of not wanting to try. When it seems impossible, I am the first to admit I get into a defeatist mentality. Which in turn adds to the initial fear and impossibility of the task at hand. The best thing to do in a situation like this, as was explained to me by a friend. Is to look back upon your history to a situation that seemed impossible, that was eventually overcome and accomplished.
So, I look at the year ahead and some daunting challenges. I then look back at the great wall marathon. On top of this again 2016 seems to be my year! I look at my first solo Skydive. The sleepless nights, the trembling before the jump. The fear in my eyes. Then I look to the jump, on the edge of the plane 15,000 ft. I looked out to the propeller, gulped and threw caution to the wind. “Leap, and the net will appear” The sense of freedom I had was like nothing before. The adrenaline surged through me and the feeling of being alive. Soaring through the sky’s. I was my very own little action man. The thing I most feared became a hobby/ accomplishment. This allows me to look ahead, although with fear and apprehension and as the question. What if? What if I can do it? What next?
Its excites me to even comprehend some of the things I may be contemplating. It is however the mindset above that will allow me to achieve success. I need to tap into that belief, to create the right mind set to achieve what initially was the impossible.
People may see me as flamboyant, deluded and everything in between. I don’t set out to prove them wrong or portray a different version of myself. I set out to prove myself wrong. No one fears these challenges or doubts me more than myself. I am a doer. My determination will always prevail. I always say “it’s too early to give up, it’s too early to quit”.
I dreamed a dream and I began living it. Have faith and branch out into the unknown. I surprised myself. Maybe you can surprise yourself?